Taking on the challenge of overcoming yourself, breaking cycles, and developing self-confidence (part I)
And a brief update on the latest channellings
A disciplined woodpecker has been waking me up every morning for a couple of months now. The tree where he works is right next to my bedside. I am sure that one of his missions is to invite me to get up and do what I have always done: intuitive writing and poetry. The difference is that now, since returning from my trip to Brazil at the end of February, I have learnt to call them psychographed messages. The reason for the change will be covered in another post.
Some of these messages I receive as soon as I wake up, still in bed. Others, during my morning Sun Salutation yoga practice. Actually, they can come at any time of the day or night, but lately the former has been the case. Over the last few months, I have channelled so many messages that this is already turning into another book. I'll soon reveal the title of these two books and my first poetry collection too.
The messages come one after the other and flow like a waterfall. They also unravel as I write them. One written word reveals another message and so on. When they are satisfied, I have to work on the editing before publishing them. You know that writing and editing are two arts that need quality time invested. My physical body is still aligning itself with their rhythm, so thank you for your patience.
Here is a summary of the channelled themes that are being prepared under the sun and the perfume of spring and will soon reach your eyes: slowing down, breaking innocence, dealing with the malevolent energy of manipulation and distorted (or masked) intentions, self-confidence and emptiness. There's more, but for now, let's focus on the most recent ones. They gained live on paper on Saturday 29 March, the day of a solar eclipse and a new moon.
Developing Self-Confidence
Lack of self-confidence is an aspect of yourself that you need to come to terms with. It is part of the foundation you need to create in order to become the true leader of your life.
We all need self-confidence and it must begin to be developed at home, in the security of present parental care. Conscientious carers are able to provide a safe material and psycho-emotional environment for the child, while ensuring that they have the necessary space to experience their trials. This is how they train their self-confidence.
Childhood is therefore the preparation phase for the challenges of adult life. And whether or not we go through life alone, we will constantly be exposed to the outside world, with other people around us.
Dealing with the world means dealing with other people and we call these relationships. But before we expose ourselves, we need to feel minimally safe. And this security is acquired precisely by dealing with people, introducing them to who we are and what we have to offer. Self-confidence is therefore synonymous with feeling safe. And for our nervous system, feeling safe is essential for us to thrive.
For this to happen, however, we must reach a deeper level of self-confidence that goes beyond what we feel when we expose ourselves to the outside world. It's trust in ourselves as a whole, in our body as our safe harbour, and in our gifts as the sublime message of our soul, packaged in gift wrap.
To trust ourselves as a whole, we need to know who we are and where we come from. Who are or were our parents, grandparents and ancestors? What intangible heritage have we inherited from them? And so on... In other words, we will only be able to strengthen our self-confidence when we look at the world from within and recognise, respect and honour ourselves with everything that is part of us and makes us who we are.
At this level of self-confidence, we know that we can trust ourselves more than anyone else. We are sure that we will do whatever it takes to nourish ourselves, whether in body, soul or heart. We feel safe enough because we know that we will be there for ourselves, being our own sword and shield, which makes us anchored and present.
This kind of self-confidence is our inner Porto Seguro, from which we can leave and to which we can always return safely. With it, we know that ‘we can count on it’ and we carry on calmly in the inherent certainty that we will honour the commitments we have made to ourselves, no matter what happens.
This kind of self-confidence works like a muscle. It needs to be trained in adulthood if we didn't have the opportunity to develop it in childhood. And if we didn't, we need to train it to be sure that someone ‘has our back’. We owe this security to ourselves. We need to be sure that someone will be there. Well, that someone is us. We're the ones who need to stand up for ourselves and do whatever it takes to move forward in life, regardless of others. In the same way that our body keeps its weight on our arms when we do the Surya Namaskar bow, trusting in yourself as your primary and fundamental source of protection and love, is a central pillar of life.
And how can we trust ourselves completely?
We have to have proved to ourselves exactly what these affirmations say: ‘I can trust myself!’, and ‘I honour my commitments to myself’. Try it now. Repeat it to yourself or out loud. You'll know the answer straight away, and what you feel will perhaps make you think about your behaviour patterns and habits. By looking at our habits, we can identify our tendency. If you are able to identify that there is a pattern of persistent habits that you can't break, but that you know don't benefit your physical, mental or emotional health, you need to understand that you are continually sending a negative message to your processing centre. If you have identified patterns of behaviour that prove: ‘I don't take care of myself, I don't honour my promises to myself, I plan to go to bed earlier, but I don't...’. You are letting yourself know that you can't trust yourself.
The fact that we don't fulfil the commitments we have made to ourselves doesn't just have to do with self-love, as we usually understand self-love. It is still subjectively linked to it, but there is another message embedded here. This message tells us that our soul, heart, principles and values are not aligned. So how can we expect to live in balance if who we are is out of alignment? We can align everything when our self-confidence is strongly anchored. Only when we know who we are, do we awaken (or become more certain) of what we want and thus do what we already knew is right and best for us. This means, we do what we need to do. With self-confidence in place, our intention, awareness, will, wisdom, energy and love are aligned, and there is no more room for the internal narratives of self-sabotage and procrastination.
Be aligned:
or in tune and coherent with yourself
With who you are
With what you love, are passionate about
With what your wisdom
With your life’s purpose (what is your message?)
What you believe in
With your essence
With your responsibilities
With your principles and values
What you can share with others
With your gifts, and
With what you invest your energy in, and dedicate your time to
These elements are the driving forces behind self-confidence because they prove whether we are being faithful and honest with our sacred truth. When we experience all this in body, soul and heart, we become the embodiment of that. Thus, our vibration will match and keep forming an energetic identity, which is like our unique fingerprint.
The trap is also the way out
Often we want to do what we know is ‘right’, but we get stuck in the cycle of repeating the old habit, without knowing how to get out of it. Staying in the cycles of repetition implies that we are not yet ready to honour ourselves and where we come from, with all that we are, exactly the way we are. If we can't do that, we have no way of exercising the true potential of self-love, and it may get very difficult to develop or strenght self-confidence.
Self-love is recognising yourself as a masterpiece of life, the sacred unity that comes from the love of two others. Recognising that you are the genuine fruit of love, or love embodied in a form of life. To love ourselves is therefore to accept ourselves as we are, no matter from where or from whom we came from, to do everything to feel safe, to do the best we can for ourselves when nobody else can, and to nourish our body, soul and heart with a love like no one else could ever do.
Getting stuck in cycles of repetition also keeps us vibrating at a frequency that indicates that we haven't yet integrated all aspects of our being. Because of this, we may not be able to activate our merkaba, our sacred geometry and imprint. Integration happens when there is no part of us that still needs to be seen, validated and accepted.
To create or strengthen our self-confidence, we need to be ready for the death of the identity, persona or reality to which we have become attached. We feel comfortable living this reality because it is what we have been used to for a considerable amount of time, but it is not who we really are.
If you have been actively observing that you are repeatedly revolving around the same theme or situation for months or years, this is an important indicator of a pattern of corrupt behaviour. You may be confused about a decision you need to make, or putting off taking action to make it. Delaying decisions, actions, changes that we need to make and don't, can be related to fear or a symptom of procrastination. No matter how much you want to or know it's the right thing to do, you always find something to avoid the situation or stop you from taking action.
Watch this closely, because those corrupting behaviours and habits are also a sign when you realize you're stuck in them. This is where we find our opportunity to break the cycle. They carry implicit reflections that force us to ‘take a look at ourselves’ and identify why, in fact, we haven't been able to achieve ‘this’ or ‘succeed at that’. And the moment we come face to face with the ‘culprit’, we may feel a rupture of identity.
Realizing that we create our inner misery arises from some important questions we ask ourselves in the practice of self-observation and mindfulness. Start doing this when you realise that you are stuck in cycles that you have tried but failed to break. Examples:
‘If I can fulfil the commitments I make to others, why can't I fulfil the ones I make to myself?’
‘If I can't trust myself, who can I trust?’
‘If I can't trust myself, how can I expect others to?’
Disloyalty as a symptom of lack of self-confidence
When we don't fulfil what we've promised ourselves, we're literally betraying ourselves! Betrayal is the knife at the opposite end of the duality sword. So if we can't trust ourselves, how do we want others to trust or be faithful to us when we are the first to betray ourselves? And here questions extend to our field of relationships, because betrayal and infidelity are synonymous.
The energetic impression of an insecure or suspicious person mirrors their lack of self-confidence to the outside world.This causes them to attract situations involving friends and relationships that correspond exactly to their embodied energetic impression of ‘lack of confidence’. It can take the form of betrayal or disappointment at unmet expectations, which also makes them feel betrayed.
Procrastination and ‘excusitis’ are two other observable symptoms that can lead us to find our way out from the cycles. Subjectively, they reflect the level of our personal power of appreciation, which arises from the confidence we have in ourselves. ‘If I love myself, I respect myself, respect the commitments I have to myself and fulfil them.’ Then we realise that the only thing or person that really stops us from taking action, making a decision or facing a challenge is the one looking back at us in the mirror. We know what we have to do, but don't do it, and we keep putting it off, spinning in this spiral for a long time.
Try to look at everything from both sides. In fact, actions, decisions or challenges that we need to face serve as important milestones. They function as a call to overcome one last step to enter a new phase or stage in our lives. Every movement counts towards evolution, and our body often anticipates them. We somehow feel that something good will happen if we do the thing we have been avoiding. Somehow we feel fear because we are deeply sure of the great thing that is going to happen. And it is true that when we overcome the challenge of overcoming ourselves, we slay the dragon and reach a very important level in our journey of evolution and the ascent of consciousness. It's through challenges that we become stronger, grow, feel and receive our adult certificate. After all, our life experience is a constant dance between our exposure to the outside world and how our inner being reads, and internally processes, interpret, and responds to these challenges. This is how the universe tests itself through the unique perspective of each one of us.
End of the first part of my post on self-confidence. Part two to follow.
I am creating a book of poetry that I'll be publishing in Portuguese and English soon. The one piece I channelled this time has to do with the theme of emptiness. Its title is: Where There Is Emptiness There Is No Pain or Suffering.
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